Right after Myles died, I decided I wanted each of my kids to have a memory book of him. I didn't want to put together a scrapbook FOR them, as I wanted this book to contain their memories, not mine. I got the albums, and the paper, and got stuck when I tried to order the photos– I couldn't do it. So I had a pile of stuff just waiting behind my computer chair. I hate piles.
I finally decided that I'd procrastinated this enough, and sat down to go through my pics. They're organized by year, and by month within each year, and a big event [more than 100 pics] gets its own category in the month. I know, I'm anal :). Anyway, I couldn't do it all at once- I took a lot of breaks [helping the kids with their homeschooling activities]- but I did get most of the pictures ordered.
Yesterday I had to go to the grocery store, and took the opportunity to go alone, since Jared had leave for Labor Day :). It had just stopped raining, and the sun was coming out as I left the house. It struck me as funny, because that was exactly how I felt in my life at that moment: like I was crawling out of a cave into the warm sunshine. The heavy feeling in my chest lightened up- my whole mood improved- just by walking into the sunshine. And I noticed that when I am reading my scriptures daily, and praying daily, that God acts as the sunshine did yesterday- He warms my whole life up, and my burdens are lightened.
8 comments:
Hugs to you, Janalee. I love this picture of Myles and understand why you have to create your own timetable for the scrapbooks for the kids. I LOVE the Barenaked Ladies, Cranberries, Sarah MacLachlan, too! Peace to you, may your burdens be lifted.
Joellyn
Oh, honey. I just ache for you. Great job getting that task done...
Good job for taking that first step, it's always the hardest. You have the big part done, now you can put the books together in stages.
I think the memory books are a great idea, dont' forget to leave blank pages so that they can add things as they grow older, like memories, or wishes, or letters to their brother etc.
What a darling picture! Just wanted to let you know I am thinking about you and keeping your in my prayers! Hugs!
Can't imagine the anguish you went through doing this task. But I'm so glad that you have God in your life to help carry the burden for you. The memory books will be a treasure for your kids in the years to come. Keep letting the sunshine in. Love ya
Boy, great job getting your task done as far as you have. I have been scrapbooking 11 years, and finally could do my brother's book a year ago. You know when the time is right.
I love you, and miss you, and keep you in my prayers daily. Hoping there are more sunshine days than cloudy ones ahead for you, my friend.
forgot to mention, what a funny picture of Myles. He really knew such joy, and was so blessed.
You are so good at expressing yourself. Thanks for sharing this, even though I can't imagine how hard it is.
I love ya!
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